I just finished putting Ethan to bed. Noah went down a little earlier, giving Ethan and I quiet time to eat dinner together (soy sauce chicken) and read ("Gumdrop"-a book from Deana and the family from South Africa about a car with secret switches that makes it fast! swim! and fly! Ethan LOVES it).
He's in there now reading out loud by the light of his light up sword.
I danced with Noah in the kitchen today and cried. Twirled his growing body in my arms while listening to laughter bubble out of him. I cried because it seems so rare I enjoy my children, and for once my emotions lined up with what I was doing-dancing with him, enjoying his body cuddled into mine.
We are usually much to rushed to do this sort of thing. We are trying to get out of the house, or get down for naps, or get ready for bed. There is always somewhere we must be.
Having some time off this weekend was beyond needed. The chance to just be with my children, to not feel rushed reading them stories or taking the time to twirl in the kitchen for a bit was important for me in order to see how rushed our "normal" life is, and how good it feels to slow down.
Noah and I got some couch time together while brother was gone with soft gingerbread cookies made by Nana for Christmas. His crumbs fell down my shirt. Every so often he'd lean in and hug me, putting his head on my shoulder and I'd feel the crumbs fall. I didn't mind, not even one iota.
Tomorrow it's back to the race track. I'm praying to keep some perspective from this weekend, to hold on to some of the patience that grew out of the slow, gentle days, for all of our sakes.